Obsessive compulsive TP checker

Yes, this post will definitely fall into the MAJOR TMI category, but I promise, no personal details.

So yeah, I want to know when I became an obsessive compulsive toilet paper checker. I know I'm not the only one... You know who you are. Right now my deal is that I'm waiting for my period so I can move along with this "TTC after miscarriage" shindig. I guess that is kind of a legitimate reason to be OCD about it. But really, I find myself analyzing it. Is there CM? What the hell does it mean if there is? Is there a trace of brown there? Red?

Seriously, people. This has GOT to stop. It's not healthy, is it?? I'm literally OBSESSING over a piece of paper that I just used to wipe my hoo-hoo. I hope that freaking period gets here soon so I can take at least a four week break from obsessing over the TP.