Today is baby Grey's due date. I thought I would have a harder time with the day, but I'm really doing okay. I guess that's because today isn't the day I lost Grey. Really, that was months and months ago, and I've already had time to grieve. My husband said to me today, "will this help with closure for you?" I told him that I honestly don't know if there will be a year when I don't think about Grey on March 26th. I don't cry all the time anymore, though. I don't even think about the babies every day really. Today is my day though. This is the day when I'll remember that Grey should be here and he/she isn't.
To remember Grey, we went out and bought some balloons and I wrote a short note on one of them. We went onto the back porch and released them into the sky. Each year I'm sure it will get a little easier, and I may not always feel the need to commemorate the day in such a way... but for this year, that's what I needed to do.
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