544

That's my HCG from today's blood draw.

I'm not ready to call this a home run and throw away my unused HPTs yet, but I would definitely like to give a shout-out to Nurse nbu and tell her to suck it.

Hope against hope

I have the tiniest shred of hope. It's probably just me burying my head in the sand, but here's what I figured out.

Last time I thought I should ovulate on a Wednesday, I didn't get a positive OPK until Saturday.

Hypothetically speaking, if I ovulated even three days late, I might have been only on DPO 15. According to a couple of charts I looked at, the average hcg for day 15 is 59. My hcg yesterday was 58. That could explain why the HPTs came back negative for so long.

Then I looked back at my calendar to see the beginning of my pregnancy with D. According to my LMP, he should have been due on July 4th. When I went for my first doctor's appointment, they told me he wasn't due until TWO WEEKS LATER. (If they told me that now, it would have completely freaked me out, but back then it just rolled off my back because I wasn't expecting bad news, and I didn't know what was normal.) He was indeed born a day after the due date that they predicted.

I'm still going to have a hard time enjoying the long weekend, but I'm not ready to completely give up hope until I hear the numbers on Tuesday - no matter what Nurse nbu thinks "in her medical opinion"...