This post is partially about my son, so please be forewarned. I will not be offended if you don't want to read it...
D is 21 months old this month. He's turning into a little person. He's getting independent - like, when we go somewhere he can get his shoes, socks, and coat. Even though he can't put them on yet, he actually does things that are helpful, like a real little kid. It's amazing and wonderful to watch.
Last spring, he was just crawling. If I wanted to work outside, he had to be sleeping or T had to be home too. This spring, we go outside for walks, I do yard work, I wash my car - all with D by my side. I've started really jogging again with his baby jogger, which is awesome. We go to stores and he's fascinated by just looking around. He's usually really well-behaved in public. We go to his playgroup once a week. I meet up for playdates and I have friends with kids to hang out with. I finally feel like ME again. The one thing that's changed is that D and I are now an inseparable pair, but we can do most of the same things I used to do before I had him. I'm really enjoying this year.
I got pregnant with Grey in June of last year, so we're getting darn close to a year of trying. I want SO much to be pregnant and have another baby. HOWEVER, I've found the thought creeping into my head that a new baby is going to start everything over from scratch - just when I had finally begun to feel like myself again. Having a baby is hard. Every single day, it's hard. Granted, we bought a house and moved the month after D was born, so it won't be from scratch like THAT was, but it will change everything. There will be a new person to worry about when we go out to stores. I will be OUTNUMBERED in public! There will be breas.tfeeding or bottles to think about. To tell the truth, it's kind of scary. I'd like to think that I'll have a little easier time since I kind of "know what I'm doing" now, but I know that having two kids is not like having two cats.
These doubts are not making me not want to continue trying for another baby, but they're certainly making me think...
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