Constant Reminder Part 2

The phone rings at 8:30 this morning.

Clueless receptionist chick: "Good morning, this is X Ultrasound place calling. Is She there?"

Me: "This is She."

Clueless receptionist chick: "Hi, we're calling to confirm your ultrasound on Thursday."

Me: "I actually had a miscarriage."

Clueless receptionist chick: "Oh, I'm sorry. We'll cancel that for you."

Are you kidding me? That's awesome. I really needed another reminder of the fact that I SHOULD be having my 18 week Ultrasound on Thursday - that there should be a beautiful baby growing inside me.

And the best part is that the ultrasound at which my miscarriage was discovered was THERE. Don't you think that they should have canceled the 18 week appointment after they discovered that my baby was dead? Sorry, but that pisses me off.

Constant Reminders

My cousin is pregnant with tripl.ets (naturally, believe it or not.) She has endom.etriosis and was expecting to have a hard time conceiving, so it is very, very exciting that she's pregnant.

The thing is that I should have been due about 2 weeks after her. I'm totally happy for her. Not jealous, not bitter, not sad. I'm completely happy for her.

However.

Every time I think about how far along she is, I think about how far along I'm not.

My Mom and I were talking about her the other day, and she said, "She's 19 weeks you know."

Me: "Yes, I know."

Mom: (realizing that of COURSE I know, because I should be 17 weeks) "I'm so sorry."

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It is my fervent hope that someday my cousin's trip.lets will be playing a game of tag with my future babies, and I'll be able to tell them about the cousin they should have had...