Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Same thing, different month

I've been MIA from blog land because that's how I apparently deal with the stress of the 2ww. I was doing really well with emotions and trying not to build up my expectations too much, but I test in a few days, and I'm really nervous about how I'll do if I'm not pregnant.

My husband and I haven't even talked Cl.omid or "next step" since the beginning of the month. My body worked like a freaking rock star this month. LH surge on day 13, negative OPK strip by day 15. That's what I'm TALKING about. This is the first month since my last miscarriage where I feel like we have a really good shot.

I know that even in a perfect month there's not a great probability of getting pregnant, but I'm trying to think really positively. I don't feel any "symptoms" yet, besides slightly sore boobs, but I'm on Prog.esterone, so even if I did have symptoms, they might be phantom symptoms from that.

I'm excited and nervous, and afraid of being really sad if I don't see two lines on that test.

6 comments:

cheryllookingforward said...

I'm excited and nervous for you.
I'll be sad with you if you need it, but hopefully I'll get to jump up and down in celebration!

Em said...

{{{hugs}}}

good luck!

Azaera said...

My fingers are crossed for you. (btw my verification word is "prized" maybe that's a good sign?)

Yaya said...

Oh dear. You're doing the dreaded progesterone? I hate progesterone! Well, if it helps me have a baby then I'll LOVE it, but in the meantime I HATE it.

GOOD LUCK!

(((Hugs)))

wifey said...

GOOD LUCK!!! I so hope this is your month!

Excited and nervous - I get that. It'll be worth it in the end though.

I hope.

prashant said...

if you need it, but hopefully I'll get to jump up and down in celebration! Work From Home