My story of coping with secondary infertility, recurrent miscarriage, and now enjoying watching my little people grow into big people
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Somehow since my last post, I'm a mess. I'm crying at the drop of a hat, and most of all, I'm worrying constantly. I'm not even worried about miscarriage now. I'm now worried about what the progesterone will do to me, whether I have PCOS, and worst of all - about stillbirth. I'm already freaking out about the fact that people don't ALWAYS get to take home the baby after 40 weeks. I checked out the recent additions to the Miscarriage, Stillbirth and Infant Loss Blog Directory and it seems like a lot of them are about Stillbirth. I'm not sure if I can look at those anymore... I have so much compassion for people who have gone through it, but I just don't think I can read their stories anymore. I can't bring myself to that place.
I'm the wife of T and mother to our five year old, D, our two year old, E, and our newborn, G. When D was not quite one, our lives took an unexpected turn when we began trying to give him a sibling. We had three miscarriages in the span of one year. (September and December of 2008 and June 2009). With no real answers, but a lot of hope, we joyfully welcomed our second baby into our family in July 2010. We are now blessed to have added a third child, a boy, in December of 2012. Please feel free to e-mail me if you wish at Wheresmywhitepicketfence@Hotmail.com