Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Holding pattern and what ifs

I haven't been posting much because (as I've already mentioned) I'm in a holding pattern with the TTC thing right now. I haven't gotten my first period yet, (only 4 1/2 weeks post d&e) so I can't get the bloodwork yet and I'm basically twiddling my thumbs and waiting.

Makes for exciting blog posts, don't you think?

There IS something I've been thinking about though. Do you ever wonder what it would be like if you had met the love of your life earlier? I wouldn't trade my hubby for anything, but I sometimes wonder why I didn't get my shiz together sooner. Why didn't I look for someone to "seriously" date in my earlier 20's? Or maybe I did, and they just weren't ready. Thing is, if I had found someone "serious" earlier, it wouldn't have been T, and I don't even want to think about life without him.

Maybe things happened just the way they were supposed to, but I sit here sometimes and wish that I didn't feel time sitting on my shoulders and telling me to procreate before it gets too late. (It's not that I'm particularly old... I'll be 32 this year.) I just wonder what it would have been like if we had met maybe 2 years earlier. Would I feel this rush to have another baby right away? Would we have waited a little longer for the first one? Would that have made any difference in our situation now?

Guess I'll never know, but it sure does make me wonder.

6 comments:

Amy said...

I wonder things like that. D and I have known each other since high school, and we've been married seven years. It took us a long time to decide to try for kids though, and I wonder what life would be if we'd made that choice sooner. But ultimately I suppose it is what it's supposed to be.

sushilover said...

32! In my eyes you are still young! I wonder about those things too but know that whoever I would have ended up with during those early years wouldn't be as half as grand as my hubby...so the wait was worth while.

A said...

I know what you mean...I am 30 and feel like we should have started trying sooner. But it is what it is, and hopefully everything really does turn out the way its meant to!!

Yaya said...

Love the new look.

Great post.


Yes, sure does make you wonder////

Hula's Secret Blog said...

I often wonder how life turned out the way it turned out. Both hubby and I changed colleges THREE times each and ended up meeting in the college we both ended up settling at. (After both changing majors!_ What if either of us had stayed at one of our previous colleges? We never would have met. Crazy.

expectingamiracle said...

Thanks for your comments, I appreciate it.