I haven't been posting much because (as I've already mentioned) I'm in a holding pattern with the TTC thing right now. I haven't gotten my first period yet, (only 4 1/2 weeks post d&e) so I can't get the bloodwork yet and I'm basically twiddling my thumbs and waiting.
Makes for exciting blog posts, don't you think?
There IS something I've been thinking about though. Do you ever wonder what it would be like if you had met the love of your life earlier? I wouldn't trade my hubby for anything, but I sometimes wonder why I didn't get my shiz together sooner. Why didn't I look for someone to "seriously" date in my earlier 20's? Or maybe I did, and they just weren't ready. Thing is, if I had found someone "serious" earlier, it wouldn't have been T, and I don't even want to think about life without him.
Maybe things happened just the way they were supposed to, but I sit here sometimes and wish that I didn't feel time sitting on my shoulders and telling me to procreate before it gets too late. (It's not that I'm particularly old... I'll be 32 this year.) I just wonder what it would have been like if we had met maybe 2 years earlier. Would I feel this rush to have another baby right away? Would we have waited a little longer for the first one? Would that have made any difference in our situation now?
Guess I'll never know, but it sure does make me wonder.
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