I was glad to finally get my period.
I was (of course) hoping to be pregnant and not get my period at all, but the longer my more-than-two-week-wait went on without a positive pregnancy test, the more I knew the pregnancy would be doomed anyway, so I was hoping for my period to break through the progesterone.
That didn't happen this time. (It happened before, but my dosage was lower.)
This weekend, after a couple of pink streaks on the toilet paper and a (well, multiple) negative HPTs, I made the decision to stop the Progester.one, and my period finally arrived in full force two days after getting off the Pro.gesterone. It's hard to believe it's only been 5 weeks since my last period. Those extra days that were drawn out by the proges.terone felt like at least two extra weeks.
Now I'm faced with a difficult choice. I was planning to take Cl.omid this cycle, but I'm thinking I may not. My due date (if I were to get pregnant this cycle) would be the day between my son's birthday and the due date of my second miscarriage. Hard to say whether that's a good omen or a bad omen because there's so much good and so much bad associated with that time. (Really, there's much more good than bad, though.) As you can infer, I had to make this choice LAST year too - about whether I cared if my due date was close to D's birthday. The truth is, I DO care. I'd prefer to have them spaced out a little but it looks like it's definitely not my choice anymore.
The sucky thing is, I. Don't. Want. To. Wait. Those of us who are in it know, it's not "just another month." It's wasted time, and a wasted chance, and getting older, and possibly being newly pregnant and having to hide it through the holidays, and for me, putting more and more space in between my kiddos.
I haven't talked to T about it yet, but I'm thinking about not doing Clo.mid this month and seeing when I ovulate with the OPK. If I ovulate around day 14 or 15, we'll try, and if I ovulate later, maybe we'll take it as a sign and wait for next month. (In truth, I'd prefer to avoid using Clom.id at all, if my body would just cooperate and ovulate like a normal person.)
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