Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Not sure how to feel

I'm not ready to let myself believe that it's really true yet. I've got another HCG draw coming up, plus Nurse nbu says they will want to do an ultrasound next week. (Personally, I think it's far too early for an ultrasound, but maybe I'm wrong. I don't think they'll be able to see anything but a lot of fuzz.)

Here's the game plan right now. I'm on 8% Crino.ne (proges.terone gel) and one baby aspirin per day. My proges.terone level from yesterday's draw was 22.7, which I think is acceptable, though not stellar, for this point in the pregnancy. I'll take it.

Other than that, I'm just doing the same old, same old. There's so, so, so much waiting. Waiting to get pregnant. Waiting to try after a miscarriage. Waiting to ovulate. Waiting to be able to do an HPT. Waiting for your period. Waiting for the bloodwork. Waiting for the ultrasound. Jaysus... For all of us in (roughly) the same boat, it's just amazing how much waiting there really is. Hoping these first few weeks fly by and that there's still a baby growing in there by the time they're over...

9 comments:

Stacie said...

I have only done it twice, and I suck at waiting. I completely understand the waiting game.

After my miscarriage, it was absolute hell *waiting* to be able to do it all over again. Then I was paranoid the entire time (almost the entire pregnancy) about miscarriage/anything going wrong.

Miscarriages are so emotionally damaging.

I am so sorry you have had to go through it so many times. It's just not fair.

I hope this pregnancy sticks.

Yaya said...

Oh the waiting...ya know what? Adoption=even more waiting. SUCKS! So hoping this is it for you!!! It's GOT to be!





PS Our "top pick" right now is the sibling group of four!! Keep your fingers crossed!

Amy said...

Waiting with you...I've got everything crossed and am full of hope!

Karen said...

As much as you can, just enjoy the moment. It may not last. Or it may last until you're flat out sick of it. But right now, you have a baby growing inside you. And that is something to be grateful for.

And I had my first ultrasound really early in one of my pregnancies. You can't see much but it's exciting none the less.

Too bad babies don't grow like chia pets. He or she would already be sprouting out of scooby-doo's head by now.

Azaera said...

I'm crossing my fingers for you. I felt like the entire 7 months with Skyler was a waiting game. I was worried all the time. I felt relief (somewhat) once he was out and alive. It was like I was finally able to let out the breath I had been holding in the entire time.

Endobaby said...

oh my gosh, i missed this! I know what you mean about hoping, but it sounds like you are onto something when you mentioned ovulating late with your first.

I so hope that everything is ok with this bubba and yourself =) can't wait to read more...

gallerygirl said...

Waiting is terrible... I found the first 12 weeks to be nerve-wracking. I hope they go quickly for you. Take all the time you need to let it sink in... you are pregnant!

wifey said...

Waiting sucks. Here's hoping these weeks fly by and you can relax!

Lorink said...

I completely understand the frustration of waiting. I have everything crossed that this is it for you!