Monday, June 15, 2009

Making progress

My weekend was a nice mix of hanging out with some girlfriends, matching up my coupons with the deals (<---dork), and spending time with the two men in my life. :)

I'm still terrified about what could happen at the ultrasound, but over the course of the weekend I allowed myself - a couple of times - to have hope. My realistic side says that I should be having some symptoms if I were really pregnant, but I have to say that a few times this weekend, the optimistic side kicked the realistic side's ass and told it to suck it up.

I keep reminding myself that I'm doing everything I can to assure that this baby will grow. I'm taking progesterone, baby aspirin, prenatals, and calcium every day. I couldn't possibly want it more. My body is healthy and prepared to nurture a baby. Not everyone who is pregnant has pregnancy symptoms. I didn't have that many when I was pregnant with D (although I did have all-day-sickness. I just can't remember how early in the pregnancy it started.)

I'll say the mantra again.

As far as I know, I am pregnant today. There's nothing I can do about yesterday or tomorrow, so I need to focus on being positive - because right now, at this time, on this day, I am pregnant.


Karen said...

I'm happy for you about being pregnant today. I have hope for you as well.

And who are you calling a dork?

Anonymous said...

You're right, that's a good mentality, you are doing absolutely everything you can be doing. *Hoping!*
Stick baby stick. Stick baby stick.

Lorink said...

Fingers crossed for a healthy, sticky bambino!

Stacie said...

I get giddy over Excel spreadsheets. I don't think you're a dork, at all.

I hope you get some piece of mind at your next u/s. And, that's wonderful that you're able to be optimistic!

Amy said...

I have hope for you, too!

Anonymous said...

How did it go hon?