Friday, August 21, 2009

I have a terrible confession

Remember yesterday's post? See, I told you it wouldn't last...

Not that I don't love all of the lovely ladies who read my blog who have babies or are pregnant. I really do. Especially because I have a two year old, I know what that's like, and I enjoy reading about babies growing in and out of the womb. Sometimes.

And I don't mind hearing about how hard it is to have an infant, because it IS. People should be able to complain about it a little without feeling guilty about the people who would kill to be in their shoes.

But lately I've been trying to find some new blogs to read where people are still in the trenches. I feel like I need at least an equal share of fertiles and infertiles. I'm sure you all remember... When you're not pregnant, people who "have been there in the past" just aren't quite as comforting as those who are there now.

I'm quickly approaching the anniversary of the date last year when I found out that I had miscarried the first time. At that time, I never imagined that I would still be waiting for my turn a year later. (I guess no one really starts ttc thinking that it will take that long.)

I'm back in elementary school and I'm the last person picked for kickball in gym class.

I'm left behind. The odd man out. Singled out for who knows what reason.

13 comments:

Karen said...

All I can say is that you truly don't deserve it.

Yaya said...

I've been feeling this same way this week. Sort of a "why me? when is it my time?" kinda mood....

Carolyne said...

I'm standing right beside you at that school wondering why no one is picking me too. Every man and his wife (pardont he english phrase) are expecting. The board I post on has just had 6.. yes 6 PG announcements!

I hope the time comes for you soon.

Bubba said...

im right there with ya !!
trying to be positive, but knowing i have to wait another 9 months just for a shot at pregnancy is killing me !. xx

wifey said...

Left out - that is EXACTLY how I feel. It really truly sucks. Let's form our own team!

Wifezzilla said...

I confess I have been seeking out blogs from people who are still having troubles. what can i say?

cheryllookingforward said...

I have the same confession. I completely skip over blog posts where people talk about their children. I follow a few girls who are pregnant after miscarriages because they give me hope, but I jsut can't relate to people with babies.

And once in gym class, I wasn't picked at all for volleyball. I had to sit and watch.

Christa said...

I'm with you on this one. It's hard to relate once someone is successfully pregnant. This is why I'll only use my current blog for losses and ttc drama. When I finally have a successful pregnancy I'll start a new blog for my pregnancy, so as to not mix the two journey's. I want my current blog to be about my struggle, so it can help others struggling, and give me support when things go bad.

Wifezzilla said...

you'll find them here. i confess that most of the blogs i follow are pregnant or have had their babies. it's time for me to find new ones to follow.

http://babylossdirectory.blogspot.com/

Emi said...

Well said.

I just read your post about Zoloft. People have suggested I get on an anti-depressant. I asked my doctor what he thought. He told me I had been through a lot. Not only was I having to deal with postpartum horomones, but the loss of a child. He said to give myself time to grieve. He told me to take time for myself, and to find people I can talk to. Maybe that is all you need, too.

InfertileNaomi said...

I'm still infertile - you can happily read my blog. :)

Bubba said...

I LOVED your comment on my blog about me being No 1 in the next lucky 3. I had to tell you that !. xx

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