Not too much happening here...
It's been hot and humid, and this is the first day of Oh.My.God.Gorgeous weather. It's not humid and it's in the low 70's. Heaven.
I had a spa day with some of my girlfriends this past weekend, and while I was getting my manicure, there was a girl sitting in the waiting area (right next to the manicure tables) talking on her cell phone. For like 20 minutes. Really. In a spa.
Anyway, the conversation was with her mother, and she was talking about her newborn. Then she said that she "already knows what we're going to name the next one." I guess her mom must have said something like, "you're not planning to have another right away, right?" to which she replied, "Oh no. Three years. Two or three years."
Now, this conversation bothered me on multiple levels. The foremost reason is that it's not appropriate to have a 20 minute conversation on your cell phone in a spa, and even if it were, this is a very personal conversation, and one not appropriate for a public place.
The second reason that it was annoying to me was because hearing other people talking about babies in public is starting to bother me. Just a little bit... But I hate that. I don't want to be someone who's bothered by those kind of conversations. In the past, they didn't really phase me. Even after my first or second miscarriage they didn't phase me, but now, the notion that this girl thought she could "plan" when she was going to have her second baby seemed ludicrous to me. I know that's the reality for a lot of people, but I guess I'm getting really jaded.
I feel like I'm starting to turn into someone I don't recognize and don't want to be. And it scares me.
On The Off Chance…
4 years ago
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Oh man. That would have left me livid. Instead of going through the retelling, i'll post the link as to why:
(SCROLL TO Sept 15th "what a waste of time")
http://wifezzilla.blogspot.com/2008_09_01_archive.html
I totally hear ya. I'm feel so jaded and cynical when I hear ppl talk like that too. Esp. the ones that have never had any problems or have not yet started trying. I had to hold it in one time when my girlfriend told me that she would prefer to have her baby in the summer because of her teaching schedule. Um. Reality check?
I'm sorry that you had to go through that. I understand both your bitterness and the fact that you don't want to be bitter. I suspect that you won't always feel this way. You will always feel the loss... but it won't be as raw as time passes.
...sigh...I know what you mean.
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